As many of you may or may not know, I've been a Michael Jackson fan for 17 years. That being said, his death this past summer was incredibly difficult for me. I cried and cried and cried and went to the vigils and cried some more. It's been really really difficult for me.
So, when I heard about the "This Is It" movie, I was stoked...but skeptical. I had this gut instinct that it was going to be so over hyped and people are going to just down it left and right and it's not going to live up to anyone's expectations...........I can't believe how wrong I was.
I bought my tickets the day they went on sale, at midnight...right when they were released, I was sure it would be selling out all over the place...but apparently here in Detroit, no one wanted to go see it the day I went...ahem.
I had a prior commitment opening weekend, so I bought my tickets for the 4th of November, buying a ticket for myself and my mom. I just bought an extra in case anyone wanted to go with me, because I didn't want to ask my mom. Why? When I was going through the grieving, she was always basically telling me to "get over it"...and I realized this week why...she was worried about me and couldn't figure out why I would take a death of someone I barely knew so hard, I get it. But it did take me longer plus we have a lot of other crap going on at home, so ya know.
Anyways, my mom offered to go with me, which was sweet, because I didn't want to go alone, but my mom has a way of kinda being negative about stuff, so I was a little curious as to how she would take it. Back when I was obsessed with him and the accusations came out, I didn't believe them, but she did...and all the talking I heard her say about him kinda swayed me to think I wasn't allowed to like him, ya know? So anyways, we go to the theater...and I was really really nervous. It was weird. I've never been nervous to see a movie. I was worried about what I would see and if I'd be let down.
We pick out seats, which was easy since we were the only ones in the theater...fun. So finally about 5 more people come in...whatever, at least no one will spoil it or anything, ya know? Movie starts...and I already lose it...stupid emotions...lol But right away, you're captivated...his presence was astounding. It felt like he was right in the room with me...well, he was, but you know. It felt like he was alive, in front of me, on a stage, performing for little old me.
The movie flew by...it was the fastest 2 hours of my life...and I caught myself thinking "God, I got to get tickets to see this concert"...and caught myself feel the urge to clap after a song ended, like I was right there...it was surreal. My mom didn't really say anything, nor did I. I cried at the beginning because of the commentary from his dancers...all was recorded prior to his death. It was sad and heartbreaking that they didn't get to fulfill their and his dream.
The movie ended with him performing "Man In The Mirror"..the 1 song since his death that took me the longest to get through without crying. It always got to me, even back in the day. It brought me to tears, and full on sobbing for a good minute. My mom, again didn't say anything...
Finally, the credits start rolling, everyone in the theater exits, and my mom and I are still sitting there, watching the credits...I'm trying to dry my tears and she still isn't saying much...which is odd if you know my mom. ;) The credits end and my mom says "you ready to leave, or you need a second?" I replied with "lets go"...we get to my car and she goes "what did you think?" and I asked her the same...she blurts "It was fucking amazing. He is such a god damned genius. It really makes you respect him so much more" and she continued on and on and on...mind you, my mom was a fan of the Jackson 5, but I felt she only tolerated him for my sake, but this changed everything. She was seriously as blown away as I was.
The movie is by far the best thing I've ever seen in my life. If you aren't a fan, you will immediately change your mind. He was and will forever be a genius, he knew his music inside and out and no one will ever surpass or come close to the man he was. We didn't just lose an amazing musician, we lost an amazing human being.
If any other fans are still struggling with his death, I urge you to see this movie. After my last cry at the end, I've had a feeling of rejoice, and a feeling of relief. Like, this was my closure. This is what I needed. This is it.
So, when I heard about the "This Is It" movie, I was stoked...but skeptical. I had this gut instinct that it was going to be so over hyped and people are going to just down it left and right and it's not going to live up to anyone's expectations...........I can't believe how wrong I was.
I bought my tickets the day they went on sale, at midnight...right when they were released, I was sure it would be selling out all over the place...but apparently here in Detroit, no one wanted to go see it the day I went...ahem.
I had a prior commitment opening weekend, so I bought my tickets for the 4th of November, buying a ticket for myself and my mom. I just bought an extra in case anyone wanted to go with me, because I didn't want to ask my mom. Why? When I was going through the grieving, she was always basically telling me to "get over it"...and I realized this week why...she was worried about me and couldn't figure out why I would take a death of someone I barely knew so hard, I get it. But it did take me longer plus we have a lot of other crap going on at home, so ya know.
Anyways, my mom offered to go with me, which was sweet, because I didn't want to go alone, but my mom has a way of kinda being negative about stuff, so I was a little curious as to how she would take it. Back when I was obsessed with him and the accusations came out, I didn't believe them, but she did...and all the talking I heard her say about him kinda swayed me to think I wasn't allowed to like him, ya know? So anyways, we go to the theater...and I was really really nervous. It was weird. I've never been nervous to see a movie. I was worried about what I would see and if I'd be let down.
We pick out seats, which was easy since we were the only ones in the theater...fun. So finally about 5 more people come in...whatever, at least no one will spoil it or anything, ya know? Movie starts...and I already lose it...stupid emotions...lol But right away, you're captivated...his presence was astounding. It felt like he was right in the room with me...well, he was, but you know. It felt like he was alive, in front of me, on a stage, performing for little old me.
The movie flew by...it was the fastest 2 hours of my life...and I caught myself thinking "God, I got to get tickets to see this concert"...and caught myself feel the urge to clap after a song ended, like I was right there...it was surreal. My mom didn't really say anything, nor did I. I cried at the beginning because of the commentary from his dancers...all was recorded prior to his death. It was sad and heartbreaking that they didn't get to fulfill their and his dream.
The movie ended with him performing "Man In The Mirror"..the 1 song since his death that took me the longest to get through without crying. It always got to me, even back in the day. It brought me to tears, and full on sobbing for a good minute. My mom, again didn't say anything...
Finally, the credits start rolling, everyone in the theater exits, and my mom and I are still sitting there, watching the credits...I'm trying to dry my tears and she still isn't saying much...which is odd if you know my mom. ;) The credits end and my mom says "you ready to leave, or you need a second?" I replied with "lets go"...we get to my car and she goes "what did you think?" and I asked her the same...she blurts "It was fucking amazing. He is such a god damned genius. It really makes you respect him so much more" and she continued on and on and on...mind you, my mom was a fan of the Jackson 5, but I felt she only tolerated him for my sake, but this changed everything. She was seriously as blown away as I was.
The movie is by far the best thing I've ever seen in my life. If you aren't a fan, you will immediately change your mind. He was and will forever be a genius, he knew his music inside and out and no one will ever surpass or come close to the man he was. We didn't just lose an amazing musician, we lost an amazing human being.
If any other fans are still struggling with his death, I urge you to see this movie. After my last cry at the end, I've had a feeling of rejoice, and a feeling of relief. Like, this was my closure. This is what I needed. This is it.
